Missing my baby :-(

I am a little emotional today, I really want to hold Oreo. She liked when I picked her up and put her over my shoulder she would rub my face and head and get all crazy and happy.

A strange encounter I had happened somewhere between a few days to a week after Oreo was gone, I was looking out the bay window in the kitchen into the back yard and a white and black bird flew by and landed on a tree in the back. Where it landed I couldn't get a good look at it, but I was like "oh my god"! I have only seen black and white birds in that Windex commercial but never in real life. and this one was more white then black, it was kinda white with patches of black just like Oreo. I had asked joel if he had ever seen a black and white bird before and he said yes, but I have NEVER seen one. It was just odd to me to never see one and then all of a sudden see one a few days after Oreo was gone. Makes you wonder......

Another thing but this is kinda funny, both of them have different things that make them sneeze. For Cookie to sneeze all you have to do is wake her up from a deep sleep, LOL yep that is weird huh? When ever you wake her up she has a sneeze attack. LOL Silly girl.

Oreo only sneezes if she leans her head back to far. I miss my baby.

Happy Birthday To Me

To: Oreo

Hey baby girl, mama woke up this morning around 8am & when I glanced over to the nightstand and saw the picture of your little face I started crying. We we getting up early today to go hiking & today is also my birthday and I just missed you so much, I really wanted a birthday kiss & hug from my little girl, but you weren't there! :-( Everyone keeps asking me what I want for my birthday but all I want is YOU! This never seems to get any easier I just hope that you know that I love you. I miss you so much sweetie and I just hope that u are ok & that you are happy. Me, Daddy & Cookie are sending you big hugs & kisses. Goodnight sweet heart!

Love Always,
Mommy

One of my moments

Ok so right now I am having one of my moments where I just start crying! It started when I was playing Super Mario Kart on wii, I was playing the character Yoshi. Yoshi reminds me of Oreo because as Yoshi is driving he looks back alot, but doesn't really look over his shoulder, just turns his head to the side. Its the same as Oreo used to do when she wanted me to open the shade that had the window bed. Joel used to tease me that she has me trained. What she would to do is scratch the shade twice ( just twice) then look to the side, not fully looking over her should just to the side as if not to let me know that she is watching, but she is. If I don't get up she repeats it, until I get up and open the shade. Her little routine was so cute.

So I was getting a little emotional playing the game & I always play the game while listening to music, well Mariah's song Bye Bye started playing and I now have lost it.