Happy Birthday To Me

To: Oreo

Hey baby girl, mama woke up this morning around 8am & when I glanced over to the nightstand and saw the picture of your little face I started crying. We we getting up early today to go hiking & today is also my birthday and I just missed you so much, I really wanted a birthday kiss & hug from my little girl, but you weren't there! :-( Everyone keeps asking me what I want for my birthday but all I want is YOU! This never seems to get any easier I just hope that you know that I love you. I miss you so much sweetie and I just hope that u are ok & that you are happy. Me, Daddy & Cookie are sending you big hugs & kisses. Goodnight sweet heart!

Love Always,
Mommy

One of my moments

Ok so right now I am having one of my moments where I just start crying! It started when I was playing Super Mario Kart on wii, I was playing the character Yoshi. Yoshi reminds me of Oreo because as Yoshi is driving he looks back alot, but doesn't really look over his shoulder, just turns his head to the side. Its the same as Oreo used to do when she wanted me to open the shade that had the window bed. Joel used to tease me that she has me trained. What she would to do is scratch the shade twice ( just twice) then look to the side, not fully looking over her should just to the side as if not to let me know that she is watching, but she is. If I don't get up she repeats it, until I get up and open the shade. Her little routine was so cute.

So I was getting a little emotional playing the game & I always play the game while listening to music, well Mariah's song Bye Bye started playing and I now have lost it.

Silly Baby

Can't take yesterday

I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun will
Rise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is it
All reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, all
The broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they
Can take the future that wel never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all
The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the future
Holds, or least where the story goes, i never believed untill now, i know il see you again im
Sure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on your
Face but they cant take yesterday,

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they take the music that wel never play, all the
Broken dreams take everythin, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they can
Take the future that wel never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the
Broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so much
Time, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments we
Made im lookin back on yesterday

Yesterday by Leona Lewis

Bedtime Story

I just remembered something Oreo used to do every night at bedtime. Well lets start with the fact that she loved our new bed and how the night stand were very low to the ground and connect to the bed. She would never jump directly on the bed she would use the night stand on daddy's side of the bed and from there walk acrossed the pillows. LOL that used to aggravate daddy that she would walk acrossed the pillows. But once she got to me she would go on the very end of my side at the top which we called "The Baby Side" of the bed and before laying down she would smell my head, actually my scalp. LOL don't ask way, I have no idea but she would smell it really hard, she would just dig her little nose in there then she was happy and would lay down. Its so funny, I never knew why she did that.

Back when it was just me and her she used to have her own side of the bed which is where daddy now sleeps. She had her own side and pillow and that was the way she liked it. Its funny because she still wants her spot so bad, she would try hard to get it and not let him in the bed, so we had to create "The Baby Side" she got used to it but deep down always wanted her spot back.

She would sleep fine on her baby side but when daddy would get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, she would stand up and watch the bathroom with big eyes just waiting to see if he was gonna come back and if he doesn't come back fast enough she would jump over me real quick and take her spot back so when he comes back he is in disbelief at how fast she just takes over. And of course we have to move her back to her spot and I feel terrible, I know she wanted her side so bad :-(

Poor little girl!
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I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but i try not cry
As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But It's like you gone too soon
No the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Bye Bye by Mariah Carey

Listen to Angel Baby

Ok I finally figured out how to put the song on here, if you are sensitive you might not want to listen, it could make you cry :-(


Me & Joel were listening to this song when we were done posting it on the blog and we were both crying and when I turned around Cookie was standing behind me just watching and listening. I wondered if she was sad too because she normally says something when you look at her or when you come towards her. When I saw her little face I went to her to pet her and....she didn't say anything, I was able to pick her up and put her over my shoulder like I use to do with Oreo. Cookie doesn't like to be picked up and usually cries but she said nothing when I did it nor did she mind when I put her on my shoulder. I put her on the bed and I stayed there with her and we have this thing at night that me and her lay on the bed with each other while I play Sudoku online. Sometimes she will come up and lay up against my stomach :-) but last night after we played that song she just laid on the bed and looked lost.

I wonder what goes through her mind just seeing one food bowl and one litter box, and not seeing sissy anywhere :-(

Song Dedication

This is the lyrics to a song I just heard by Tiffany called Angel Baby, I wish I could find a player that will let me play the song on the site, but for now "Oreo sweet baby this song is for you".

Angel Baby
It's just like heaven
Being here with you
You're like an angel
Too good to be true

But after all
I love you, I do
Angel baby
My angel baby...

When you are near me
My heart skips a beat
I can hardly stand on
my own two feet

Because I love you
I love you, I do
Angel baby
My angel baby...

Ooo I love you
Ooo I do
Noone else could love you
Like I do...
Ooooh...

Please never leave me
blue and alone
If you ever go
I'm sure you'll come back home

Because I love you
I love you, I do
Angel baby
My angel baby...

It's just like heaven
Being here with you
You're like an angel
Too good to be true

But after all
I love you, I do
Angel baby
My angel baby...

Ooo I love you
Ooo I do
Noone else could love you
Like I do...
Ooooh
Oooh...

Please never leave me
Blue and alone
If you ever go
I'm sure you'll come back home

Because I love you
I love you, I do
Angel baby
My angel baby...

When you are near me
My heart skips a beat
I can hardly stand on
My own two feet

(mommy loves you and misses you)