Friday June 13, 2008

I woke up Friday morning around 7am. I went down to check on Oreo and she was the same. She was just laying there motionless, still with her eyes open. She had pee peed in 2 spots over by my radio, again the area was a good distance from where she was laying. I called my mom to give her an update and while I was talking to her Oreo got up and went in the kitchen and peed. All the meds she was given on the day before were only gonna last 24hrs & I figured that was probably somewhere between 3-5pm. No way was I gonna wait til then especially with it being friday. I took her back up to the vet around 8am, I wanted to leave her with them all day so that they can keep an eye on her, since they are doctors.

We decided to check her blood work again. She was just there in Feburary and her blood work was perfect, but since the x-rays seemed to be ok except that one spot in the lungs, blood work was next on the list. Those results turned out to be ok, her glucose levels were up a bit but she was not diabetic. It also showed that her liver was elevated 3 times what it should be. It should not be any higher then .9 and hers was 3.9. Still that didn't tell us much. So next was an ultrasound and that did find something in her stomach, and she said Oreo does seem to have alot of pain in her stomach. :-( my poor baby girl. She also did a urine test which turned out to be ok. Dr. Simon was not sure what it was in her stomach, it could be a tumor, cancer or maybe Pancreatitis. I had her go ahead and test for Pancreatitis. The only problem with this is that test has to be over nighted to Texas! It would be mid next week before I could get the results and Oreo just seems to be getting worse.

I went through my pics looking for a certain pic of her that I used to have all the time in the frame by my bed. I found it and put it back in. I used to take that pic in that frame with me every time I have been on vacation since having her. That is how much I love and miss her, I can't even go on vacation without that pic. Now the pic is back where it belongs and Joel says it's a sad picture and makes him cry, its almost as if Oreo is saying "pick me up". Her eyes looking at you in the pic make you sad, but I still love the pic, its my favorite.

Oreo could not come home cause she was getting worse and needed supportive care. The only good thing about this is supportive care is the treatment for Pancreatitis, so even before I would get the results she would basically be doing the treatment. But I did not want to hospitalize my child, she is scared, sick, in pain and hates that place. Dr. Simon recommended that I take her to Cobb Emergency and have her stay the weekend there since she would be monitored 24 hrs a day where at the vet she is at they close at 6:30 m-f and 2pm on Saturday and are closed on Sunday. They said they can do it, but feared what could happen when no one is around, she will be hooked up to fluids all weekend and what if she pulls it out or gets it kinked. I didn't think she would since she was motionless. Plus the cost would have been double at Cobb Emergency. Money is not an issue but the more I can save the more I have to use for her treatment if they find out what is wrong with her. Also I'd rather keep her as close to the house as possible and with the doctors and environment she is already sort of used to.

They went ahead and set her up for her first night there. I knew it would be hard to know she is alone after hours but I didn't know it was gonna be THAT hard. Me and Joel went up to visit her right before they closed I wanted to tell her goodnight and that I loved her and to be strong. Of course I was crying, it was so hard to leave her there. I have NEVER left her alone when she didn't feel good and now feeling the worst she could possible feel I am leaving her all alone and in a cage. I will say though the cage was not what I expected I was actually happy with it, it was much larger then I thought it would be and had a solid ground. After they closed I was so scared I worried myself sick, my stomach was hurting and of course my heart was aching. All those thoughts going through my mind, is she ok? is she in pain? is she sleeping? is she dreaming or having nightmares? is she scared? did she kink her cord? and did they leave a light on for her somewhere? I was really worried about that I did not want her in complete darkness.

Me and Joel have been watching alot of movies, movies are keeping my mind off those this a little. Today I cried so hard and for so long that I just don't think I have any tears left. All I do is lay in bed in cry. I know I need to eat but have hardly eaten. I tried to force food in me and almost choked cause I was crying so hard at the same time. This has been a horrible horrible day.